September 13, 2011
February 22, 2011
September 5, 2010
June 21, 2010
I am grateful to have this privilege to be there at her wedding to give her away with her mother for I have lived and survived many very close calls with death in the last four years. I thank God for the gift of being alive to see that day and celebrate in His goodness.
Concerning my healing process, it is slow, but steady. I take a new product now that has a synergy of ingredients that are pure extracts from many types of plants which not only stimulate the number of stem cells we have in our blood system, but also repair DNA that is damaged and aging. It has made a big difference in my life since taking that AOI liquid and its tastes great. It is from Ceres Living and put together with the top scientists of the day here in the US.
Third, I have been given a great gift of being able to visit my old country which I lived in for ten years of South Africa. I will be going there in Jan 14th 2011 for a month and have a free ticket and the best part is that I will be staying with many many old friends and former parishoners of the Church which I was pastor in while there.
So it is an honor to revisit that celebrate and have renewal time with so very many wonderful persons who impacted my life at such an early age. I will write more and share with you as time goes on about the plans, places, people, and opportunities I will have in which to share and be graced with such richness! Keep in touch. Mike
Please read below the continued thoughts that go back two years from the start of my stem cell transplant in Bangkok Thailand. This blog goes from the present and falls chronologically two years and four months.
May 14, 2010
Take a look and see what you think. Mike :)
March 18, 2010
After three grueling months of misery and recovery a glimmer of hope with the Ejection Fraction up between 20-25% compared to 10% at the time of the mitral valve repair and maze ablation 7 hour surgery on December 8 2009.
In May 2008 after the stem cell therapy my heart function had gone up to a 30-35% Ejection Fraction and then after a 1 1/2 yrs it started to go down again because of the hard work the heart had to put up with with the severe mitral valve regurgitation.
Now after this past Dec. '09 surgery the leak is fixed and the heart doesn't have to work so hard and it has a chance to recover some. It could go up to 35% at least that is the hope. But for the long run my doctor said "it is in God's hands now."
Before this surgery I was in a catch 22. I needed the stem cells to get the EF and heart function better and it did and then it made it possible for me to have the mitral heart valve repair. Otherwise they would "not" have operated on my weak heart. Now, if I can recover to a 35% and stay their for a while it could buy me time to either have more stem cell therapy someday or some other drug which could help the left ventricle function? Who know? The rest of the heart however, is fine. At this time I don't know the size of the left ventricle, I meant to ask him that and forgot. I was telling him of a friend who is 38 years old and he had a heart pump assist device which really helped him even recover some of his own heart function. It was called a LVAD. A left ventricle assist device. Or they have the heart-mate II now as well. If you are not a candidate for a heart transplant you can have one of these devices put in and one lady I heard of has had hers for 13 years. Anyway, that is still a long way off and I have another 9 months for recovery and we will see what the EF looks like. I will have another echo in July 21st. I think that since I just now started to feel better and am able to walk a couple of miles a days that I will see more improvement by July.
It is one day at a time for now. It is interesting I still feel sore in the heart and have a little tingling numbness in my left pinkie finger. I am weaker right now more than a year ago, but I was at my peak with the stem cells and their good they were going to do, but as I said that hard work the heart had to do with almost all the blood it pumped out fell back in again worked against itself and caused weakness and decline in the elasticity of the left ventricle.
So that is where I am at and how I am doing. Going to try to continue to live life to the fullest while trying to be wise with diet, exercise, and supplements to help the heart and not put a strain on it. Then I try to do a meditation of light and healing to the heart as well. It is true, it is all in God's hands and that is a good place to be.
Yesterday was a big day. It was long trip to Ft. Pierce to see the doctor, have an Echo, and visit the hospital where I had the surgery and where I use to work and see an old good friend at his house. I brought 3 big fruit trays of fresh fruit to all the nurses on the three floors I was on and gave each of them a thank you note for their wonderful care. They were all grateful to see me and told me over and over again how great I looked after such a long and difficult surgery. That was encouraging.
Take care everyone. Sincerely, Mike
January 30, 2010
THIS ALL BECAUSE I THOUGHT I WAS READY FOR A MITRAL VALVE LEAK REPAIR, BUT I FEEL A 100% WORSE. YET MY VITALS ARE GOOD AND MY SINUS RYTHUM IS IN GOOD SHAPE? VITAL ARE GOOD, YET I FEEL 100 TIMES WORSE THAN EVER. EXPLAIN THAT. A NUMB LEFT ARM AND LITTLE FINGERS ON THE LEFT SIDE. NUMB FEET AT THE BOTTOM AND CAN'T FEEL THEM. MENTIONED THEM TO THE DOC AND THEY GO OFF TO LOOKING AT THE HEART AND DISMISS YOU NUMBNESS AS IF THEY HAS NO RELATION. I THOUGHT THE BODY WAS ONE AND ONE WITH THE SOUL AND SPIRIT TOO. MEDICAL WORLD DOESN'T SEEM TO HAVE THAT TRAINING OR INTEREST PROBABLY CAUSE THEY THERE IS NO MONEY TO BE MADE THERE. OK THIS IS REALLY HOW I FEEL AND THE TRUTH AS I CAN EXPRESS IT FOR NOW . PLEASE FOR BEING WITH ME SEND ME YOUR LOVE. i WILL MAKE IT......
November 17, 2009
Impermanence, change, evolvement, metamorphosis, growth, development, becoming, movement, energy, vibration, division which equals and adds multiplication, color, wind, expansion, spirit, newness, creativity, building, synergy, unfolding, blossoming;
Life is getting into the eternal spiritual realm, an eternal timeless place, which is aware, awake, present, conscious of the unseen to the world of the present moment, the perfect second, this very minute in between the nano seconds.
Life is to “be in the Tao, the middle way, balanced, flexible, firm, established, settled, grounded rooted, solid yet fluid, waving in the wind, bending and not breaking.
Here Life is healing, whole with wholeness, flowing, holy, with energy through the body, mind, spirit, heart, soul, with light, beauty, magnificence, inexhaustible, non destructible, can’t be extinguished, nor squelched.
Life is, your essence at it’s core is worthy, precious, priceless, with more worth than all the gold, platinum, power, control, dominance, knowledge, popularity, or riches of the whole world combined 1000 times over.
Your life, you have and were made in the image of the Divine God of the Universe who always has been and put into you the spark of God which is love, peace, safety, friendly, personal, a home, security, hope, anticipation, a knowing, beauty, glory, which thrives in community, oneness, belonging, unconditional regard with non judgment equality that honors each other perfectly. You see your life is the most uniquely exquisite sparkling essence ever and it is all there laying right there “in you,” a gift you are, a present all wrapped, waiting to be discovered and unwrapped with all its ETERNAL unending wonders, gifts which will “never stop” getting better, which never fizzles, never ends and in which then can never ever get bored or worthless. Getting bored or feeling worthless can’t happen, not to your soul life; maybe to your old damaged broken brain patterns, but no, not to you, the real you.
This little excerpt doesn’t even begin to describe your eternal journey of discovery of treasures which are all unseen in the spiritual realm.
The results of tapping into this spiritual world which is inside you, everywhere and which you cannot escape from makes you very rich, happy, fulfilled, satisfied, content, which has an affect of giving you security and hope even when your bodies or our bodies and lives fail, and it seems like life around us disintegrates, and when it seems like everything is going wrong and its seems it can’t get worse and you see no way out, you can through spiritual practice be calm, assured, stress free. You experience a knowing from an unseen abundance and plenty which you learn to tap into.
Life is an enjoying the ride even when it seems you have nothing to be enjoying!
What is so amazing about this Life of knowing is that you don’t know “how” anything is going to work out and you have no control over the outcomes, but then, when accessing into the eternal now, which you know, you know that it’s going to work out. For you experience a heightened alertness, aliveness, and an inner spaciousness! Again, you don’t know “how” it is going to work out, but you know inwardly it is going to work out. Then you begin to relax, rest, renew, recreate, and recover while the winds of Spirit flow through you guiding you to unknown places. For this life is not by our mind working it out, “not by our knowing, it doesn’t work things out, it can’t, it is limited in knowing the millions of way it could work out. The mind doesn’t have the capacity, it is too finite, too little, but the Spirit of God has the path and it is a billion times better than what we could come up, but it is in spirit, not in body. But the outcomes of having Life is that the body benefits with health, healing, wholeness, and happiness sets into the mind and thus a cycle within of calm wonder and ah.
Life is making sure that you are making it your number one job and purpose on this earth to discover your true self, which results in you being a servant of others, the greatest job in the world! Servant of all and last of all to quote Jesus which I say makes one the happiest most fulfilled of all. Now you will be and are enjoying the ride and blessing others in and with your own essence and aura of freedom and life!
This enjoying the ride of life can and is lived in any circumstances and in any physical condition even if you live in a mud hut, with a grass roof, cow dung floors, and burlap bags for clothes, and with water from a dirty creek or well and only corn meal for food everyday.
For life is winning yourself: My quote for years that I discovered is this: “Once you have “won” yourself, know yourself, love yourself, know what your purpose, mission, and reason for being on this earth is by unwrapping the present within, then you will no longer have to try to win, manipulate, control, prove, dominate, stir up trouble, and no longer be bored, for you can’t get bored in the spiritual world of eternal infinite possibilities, then and only then are our free to enjoy the ride of what LIFE IS all the way!
“Light, will someday split you open even if now your life is a cage, for a divine seed, the crown of destiny, is hidden and sown on an ancient fertile plain, and you hold the title to it.” Haifiz
September 8, 2009
I am grateful for the progress that has come my way with help of many many friends, prayers, and the wonderful treatment I had at the Bangkok Heart Hospital with the Vescell company. Come and explore my journey with me below. If you start at the bottom and work your way up you can visit my journey.
August 20, 2009
Fortune Magazine: Adult Stem Cell Therapies Are Where Investors Should Be Looking
It is encouraging that the financial sector recognizes the tremendous advancements in adult stem cell research. When the rubber hits the road, the facts win out when making lucrative business decisions, as succinctly described in Fortune magazine this week. After five years of nothing but lies** in American print media (2004-2008) the truth is seeping through the cracks.
Fortune magazine reported this Tuesday, June 16, that researchers and analysts say that marketable therapies are already emerging from less controversial work with adult stem cells. According to this news piece “When it comes to stem cells, the public – and the media – tend to focus on embryos.” Regardless, as acknowledged by Fortune, “adult stem cells are currently the only type of stem cells used in transplants to treat diseases” and the successes attributed to the ease of use and reduced costs in developing therapies while avoiding ethical issues. From a business interest, many therapies are approaching market approval while embryonic stem cell therapies, if proven safe and successful, are at least 10 years away. While the media continues its focus on embryonic cells, industry recognizes where the value lies. Many major biopharmaceutical companies such as Pfizer and Genzyme are earmarking billions of dollars for development of adult stem cell cures. To read the entire article, please click here.
Patients have the right to know all available treatment options. For those reading this message for the first time, there are several resources available for research and clinical information. For additional information on successful adult stem cell studies, please click here. To find treatment centers for specific conditions, please visit the Repair Stem Cell Institute website.
**The first known breach of American print propaganda happened last November when the NY Times erred by allowing a truthful stem cell article on its website for the first time in many years. It seems their Paris correspondent, not knowing the “rules,” wrote an accurate description of a great adult stem cell victory. Before the bosses realized it, hundreds had read it. It was, of course, unceremoniously yanked and replaced by standard NY Times stem cell misinformation. (They actually had the chutzpah to call the adult stem cells “embryonic-like!”)
July 11, 2009
Yea, I think a week is far to short of a time, but it is a start. How about year of silence, that could be a challenge for someone who is a 21st century American.
What do you think? Rumble's Ramblings.....................
June 5, 2009
I am going on a full one week retreat of SILENCE at the St. Ignatius Jesuit Retreat Center on Long Island in NY. Here I will have "no" contact with the outside world for one full week and no talking. No TV, radio, newspaper, phone, internet, watch, no clocks, and no talking with anyone. I will be with others who will be there in this large mansion owned by the Jesuits and will contemplate, pray, read, journal, listen, be quiet, watch, observe, notice, hear, and be able to allow the noise and clutter of our very cluttered noise filled world to be stilled and for my soul to be able to express its still small voice of truth and life. I will have the opportunity to hear God while walking on the beautiful grounds over looking the Ocean or while strolling through the woods.
I will not have to worry about anything on earth, no cooking, no cleaning, no chores, no tasks, no calls, only silence. Eating in silence with about 20 other people there too who will be on the retreat. There will be a bonding in the silence!!
I eagerly anticipate this never before experience of one week of full concentration on just silence, listening, and hearing. I have never gone that long without talking or using a phone, etc. Many people have said, "I could not do it, I don't think I could do that, or I would go crazy." But really you could, it is just a matter of a mind set, that's all.
So if you see from July 24-31st you can't get a hold of me it is because I am on this retreat on Long Island NY.
I will keep you all posted. Yea, I can finally escape from the noise and clutter of this world for a little while! It could be a life changing event in that the new insights which can come from my eternal soul that are just laying there dormant will be able to be heard and be integrated into my life.
May 14, 2009
I am extremely grateful for everyone everywhere for everything. Most important very grateful to God and the wonderful abounding love that is poured out all the time!!!
Thanks so much, Mike
May 5, 2009
One year ago today I received 32 million of my own stem cells injected into my left ventricle with 30 long thoracic needles in Bangkok Thailand. The Bangkok Heart Hospital is state of the art, five star care, with the most competent doctors and nursing staff I have ever ever encountered even after working in US health care facilities as a director for twenty years!
I am extremely grateful for the wonder support that I received from so many from all over the world and my special friends who gave, prayed, watched, commented, and encouraged me to go forth. It has been an amazing ride and journey.
There is a ways to go with fixing a leaky valve when the FDA approves a new procedure with a clip that can be used safe and easy and that will help the heart improve even greater and could potentially correct the chronic atrial fibrillation. So keep up the prayers and the positive energy everyone. Many many people are benefiting with the stem cell explosion. I am grateful now that there has been a lift on the ban for stem cell research in the US and I know that we are going to see hundreds of research centers finding new potential cures for many diseases.
Let's celebrate!!!!! Praise to God.....Mike
May 4, 2009
There is great hope for many many people from around the world in this venture and now there is freedom for stem cell research in the US!
I am doing much better, heart Ejection Fraction is better and when I get the Mitral Valve repaired it will improve that much better. We are working on getting approval from the insurance company for that. I ask for your prayers in that regard.
Thank you so much for your support and prayers.
April 23, 2009
Please see these wonderful lessons or explanations of what adult stem cells can do and their regenerative powers. They are the wonderful "omnipotent cells" that you have in your body. Click on the link listed above and scroll down to the 10 lessons and click on those wonderful very short messages and information.
One year ago I could not even begin to walk up those stairs, and there were a lot of them for it is a large concert hall.
We went to see Bess and Porgy from Greshwin performed by the Paducah Symphony, the Paducah professional Chorus, and three Opera singers performing the solo pieces. It was wonderful and fun. I got to see old friends there who I use to sing with at the Murray State Concert Chior who are still part of the Paducah Chorus. I really miss that, but feel I could sing again for my "strength" has returned to be able to do that!
April 2, 2009
Now after having experienced in the Bangkok International Heart Hospital the most incredible health care I ever received and yet in "third world country" I can truly say I feel and am doing much much better. My heart function has improved, my nightly struggle to sleep propped up on four pillows is gone, my walking with shortness of breath has disappeared, my water retention has come under control, my fainting spells have stopped, the stars I would see after standing up no longer appear, and a new sense of hope has surged my spirit and life.
I still have a long way go with severe mitral valve regurgitation and chronic atrial fibrillation. My goal is to have the new percutaneous mitral valve repair kit where a clip/spring is put on the mitral valve so that it can close properly. That will help with the pumping action be more effective and thus the heart can have a chance to increase it's output of blood. Once that is working more effectively the atrail fibrillation will have a chance to correct itself for the heart won't be so confused as to what is happening.
So this is where I am at. Feeling better, but still weak and slow, but making progress. "Little by little makes a bundle." From an old African proverb.
Join with me in concentrated specific pray and positive thoughts for God's perfect timing and plan to work out all the while developing in wisdom, growth, and maturity. It's all good!!!
It's been one year. I am grateful for ever step and the gracious wonderful loving support from everyone from all over the world.
March 5, 2009
Posted 3 March, 2009 in Dilated Cardiomyopathy |
Stem Cell Research and Treatment for Congestive Heart Failure
Stem Cell research has produced another miracle in the form of Adult Stem Cells. Mike Rumble, a dilated cardiomyopathy and congestive heart failure patient from Florida is now reporting his ejection fraction has tripled after receiving stem cell therapy in the form of his own Adult Stem Cells.
I first featured Mike here in December 2008, Mike was treated by Vescell adult stem cells for his dilated cardiomyopathy and congestive heart failure in Bangkok, Thailand in May 2008. Now, 10 months later, Mike is doing much better.
Before Vescell stem cells
- Ejection Fraction at 10%
After Stem Cell Treatment using Adult Stem Cells
- Ejection Fraction at 30%
Second Time Adult Stem Cell Research Has Saved Him
This was Mike’s second close brush with death. The first came in 1989 when he was in the hospital for six months for AML Leukemia which he survived due to Adult Stem Cell research in the form of a bone marrow transplant.
More Energy Due to the Stem Cells
With the renewed energy and heart function given to him by the stem cells, Mike has been able to return to his own counseling business. Website: michaeljrumble.com
Still More Hurdles After Stem Cell Therapy
However, Mike isn’t out of the woods yet. Unfortunately, Adult Stem Cell research can’t help with valve repair. Therefore, Mike is trying to get into a clinical trial in which they use a special clip to correct severe mitral valve regurgitation. Mike hopes his condition will improve even more if he is able to do it.
February 28, 2009
This report would be much better we believe if I did not have severe mitral valve regurgitation where the blood that gets pumped out of the left ventricle falls back into the left ventricle because the mitral valve doesn't close properly. That makes the heart pump harder and thus weaken. Also this causes two other problems. One is a new thing called "Subendo Cardio Ischemia" which means a lack of oxygen and blood nutrients can get into that part of the heart and there is pressure and angina in the heart and chest area. The second problem that occurs is that it further enhances the atrial fibrillation or irregular heart electrical rhythm and thus makes the heart less efficient.
We are working with the insurance to get approval for the clinical trial for the Percutaneous Mitral valve repair kit. I have been accepted into the national FDA approved study and it could really help the mitral valve regurgitation problem. So let's keep praying about that to come about which wold really be a wonderful blessing! Thanks so much. Mike
February 22, 2009
I will keep you all updated on his progress.
There are others who have been contacting me from around the country about what they should do with their cardiomyapathy and their own stem cell transplant options. It is so cool to be a place where people can come and ask for advice and guidance!
February 11, 2009
February 9, 2009
February 6, 2009
I know that his mother, Michaela, and Lee her son, would be very grateful for your support and prayers. They are from Western Austrailia and have traveled to Bangkok to have this wonderful hope of regeneration to his ailing heart!
After contacting me on this website and some work we were able to get him accepted into the program and now the Vescell team are excited because this will be the first younger person in otherwise good health that they have been able to treat and they feel very hopeful about some improvement!
So please send all your love and support to Lee and his family as he goes through the cutting edge super cell procedure.
January 27, 2009
Your name fits your energy and spirit. I wanted to ask you if you would consider talking with me personally. I am a pre-med student at Hodges, and I have a teacher actually wanting to have the same procedure. She has the same heart condition that you do. Her name is Anne, and she needs help. I, along with a committee, of people are trying to raise the 40,000.00 for her trip to Thailand. We are a tenacious group of people that found her story to be one of hope, and I honestly could not let her live another moment without trying to help her live stronger, and healthier. Yiu have become our beacon of hope as we put our event together. I would love to hear how you were able to raise the funds. We have some good ideas, but teanwork is key, and I feel God has put you in our direct path for a reason. I hope you answer our prayers and humble us with your knowledge on how to have a successful fundraiser. Thank you for your strength and will to help others. Charity Ann Godfrey, president of Whole Heart Foundation(that will be our foundation name once we submit all of the paperwork)
January 27, 2009 9:39 AM
January 20, 2009
Here is an update: I have been accepted into a clinical trial at the Baptist Heart Hospital in Miami, FL for a "percutaneous mitral valve repair kit" for my severe mitral valve regurgitation problem. This is where they will insert a clip/spring on the mitral valve so that each time blood is pumped out of the ventricle the mitral valve (flap) will close. Right now it is stuck open and the blood that gets pumped out most of it falls back into the ventricle and thus the heart muscle has to work harder to get that blood out again. This cycle causes the muscle to increase in size and thus it get weakened and flabby and the ejection fraction decreases.
Anyway, I have been approved for the program for January 09 and it means a two day stay in the hospital and only a minimally invasive surgery to place the clip on the mitral valve. They go up the groin instead of the traditional method of doing an open heart surgery to replace it with a pig valve. So, it is a lot safer, easier, and simple. They also have in the national clinical trial a 95% success rate so they feel that after the trial runs its course that the FDA will quickly approve this new method as a means of repair for those that meet the criteria. What those are I don't know, but I do know that with my sick heart I meet the criteria and that I am grateful for.
I will keep you all abreast of the developments of that possible surgery. I still have to get approval from insurance, etc. You know that will be an interesting trick. However, I am going to show the insurance company how much of a win win this is with less invasive surgery, less cost, lower risks, and a longer improvement of heart health which translates into lower costs for them. This should be quite an interesting challenge to say the least.
Please, each of you have a very Merry Christmas worship season as you rejoice in our Savior's birth and gifts to us eternally.
Sincerely, Mike Rumble
PS. The heart seems to be doing ok even in spite of Atrial Fibrillation, severe mitral valve regurgitation, 25 % EF, and all the other problems it faces. Too many others to mention. Thanks.
PSS There will be a follow-up article about my Stem Cell progress in the Port St. Lucie Palm Beach Post on Thursday the 11th of Dec 08.
October 30, 2008
LIFE’S REFLECTIONS WHILE SITTING IN THE WOODS NEXT TO A STREAM CALLED CANADA CREEK IN
I wrote in my journal these thoughts and reflections. “I sit even in the beautiful remote place yet seemingly having a hard time getting away from human made noise. A saw buzzing, someone working with metal in the background, gunshot for target shooting in the distance, an occasional distant car goes by which breaks the stillness and silence of the noise of the forest and it’s trees whistling in the wind. However, I choose to hear something(s) else. A new noise of trees and leaves blowing in the wind, and a breeze rustling the leaves of the potato trees along the banks.
I see silent grey and white overcast clouds moving gently along the sky, brightness behind the clouds is seen and above them with the sun wishing to shine through. I see and hear silent green of every shade bouncing out excited with energy, light, and life!
The wind spirit comes through this little valley and some foliage is visibly moving and swaying while other brush moves not even a leaf.
I too am moved by the quiet flow of the wind and parts of my energy levels are affected, they are moved within my soul.
Quietness and stillness, movement and sound—coexist. Interesting? Selah!
My leg gets some breeze and moves the hairs around and I feel it, yet my face doesn’t get that same affect. It is still me, but a different level, part of me is affected differently. Two, three, and more areas just of my body feel an affect at the same time; yet various areas of my body feels my affect or awareness. It doesn’t mean that affect is not happening, I am just either not aware of it or don’t feel it.
There is “something happening” even in the stillness, or in the breeze, or in the feeling, or in the unawareness.
There are other things I am aware of. There is a general weakness, fatigue, back soreness, and a backside that is tired from weight pressing on it, yet too there is a ringing in my right ear. Ok, I could go on, but want to move to the spiritual/soulish level where my true self and essence lies.
What do I sense here in the soul? Calm, a peace, rest, contentment, with no urgency or hurry. No threat. I feel and sense energy, not adrenaline. I put my hands out and become aware of my own energy field. I sense and know energy all around me. Not only an energy felt, but an energy from the living things around me; grass, trees, stream, flies, dragon flies, wind, breeze, ground, grass, sand, earth, sky, the ferns, weeds, bugs, insects, yet a snake (two actually), and ripples over the water going by.
There is a stillness, yet an energy and life and its’ power to thrive even in the remote region in
I actually see life and energy easier, than in the city bursting with or teaming of activity and “life.”
Enlightenment happens to me here because life continues even in this imperfect place. There are dead and dying things around me too; branches, trees, leaves, parched ground, rotting timbers, erosion along the banks of the “living” stream.
BOTH LIFE AND DEATH CO-EXIST HERE.
Like my body being renewed and rejuvenated by rest and renewal of cells and its’ regeneration, but also aging in my body. Toes discolored, age spots, thinning of hair, wrinkles, grey places, chest pain, irregular heart fibrillation, and a host of other aging and dying cells within me. New life cells, dying cells.
Ok, so how does this or these thoughts connect to the soul? My body can, is, does, demise; while my soul grows, comes alive, develops, evolves, understands, becomes, has newness, is aware of its preciousness, value, and eternal significance even while it is housed in the frame of an ailing and renewing body or shell.
What I know is that Michael J Rumble is alive both in body and soul. Even though my body could just stop and I could drop over dead at any second because of an ailing heart. That is very real, yet there are still new cells even while the heart is damaged. But the soul has no decaying cells or dying parts like my body. My body will one day quit, my soul will go on shedding its’ shell and freedom, life, and light and love and illumination will ever be.
So right now, this very second I am aware of impermanence and permanence; a lasting and a change Co-existing.
Millions of life energy symbols are around me and millions of dying, hurting, wounded symbols surround me! I choose to concentrate on the lasting, conscious self which was made in the image of God’s Likeness, breath, life and which has God’s Divine Spark and Spirit in and around and through and present, and which has saturated every part of my being.
Ok, with this present awareness which I observe this “second in time,” has an eternal or an eternity present in it, an eternal space, a place in between the seconds. Or it is like this, my present presence and awareness with each second has the potential of eternal timeless awareness in that second. I can’t exhaust that second, it is eternal if I choose to live in it with my soul. It is like what Eckhart Tolle says in his book, “The Consciousness of Now, “you get to where you can live in the space between the atoms which has a place between the neurons of those atoms, and yet has an eternal place between the nano neurons and that can’t be exhausted or ended. “ Paraphrased here by MJR.
I say wow that can blow your mind.
Yet when I think of that I think of the teachings of Zen Buddhism and one of their core teachings which says, “not mind knowing,” I don’t let my mind know things, but empty things and be quiet and drop all assumptions so that Mindfulness can emerge from the depths of the soul and thus insight and aha moments happen. You begin to get it!
The soul, the eternal self, the personhood, individual, unique, created and co-creator God likeness, person, with special features all its’ own can actually transcend time and physical limitations and reach and go far beyond what we have been taught in our conventional culture and even religious practices and spirituality.
Then once you get to know (it) your unique self soul, you will like and enjoy your (self) soul! It is really special to get to know your individual self and then have the enriching honor and sacred privilege of getting to know someone else’s Self Soul. Then the question arises that if it takes an eternity to discover and explore your self soul, then in that same eternity of no beginning and no end discover and explore each other’s self soul? That would be cool to really get to know another’s unique self soul! No boredom here even in one realm of another’s being.
Not mind knowing. No thoughts, no right or wrong answers. Nobody is right about anything, hardly ever, but we do have bits and pieces of information and ideas of universal truths. And you know I am not even right about that about that thought either, I don’t think.
So what is all this gibberish? The formation, foundation, building blocks of ideas, knowledge, insights, feelings, wisdom, thoughts, which come from the soul which seeks to ever expand its being aware, awake making a limited frame from which to build new life and service, values, beliefs, loosely held so that a formation of a continuum of seamless evolving and discovery. They Co-Exist!
Renewal and awareness, death and dying of old glimpses of held tightly awareness or thoughts.
Next day: 7-15-2008 Journal continues. That was interesting, the former pages from 7-14-2008 at Doti Trail landing near the stream in northern
So what I do is discard the old thought awareness and consciousness with newer clearer consciousness and use them to integrate into my wholeness and well being. It creates a better coping mechanism for a complete life, well rounded, and healthier me in all facets of my being, body, mind, soul, spirit, emotions, psyche, social community within me and the community at large. It enhances the self-esteem. The outcome?
A better person, servant, with growing courage to face life’s struggles and blessings with integrity, respect, honor, character, faith, hope, and love for all. It makes me a better servant of God, with the recognition that I am not God, just made in the likeness of God and that is pretty cool.
Ok, I will be writing more of my thoughts of dealing with living on the edge and cusp of death and dying not only with dying patients, families, and twenty years experiencing the joy of birthing souls to new life, but also my own dealings with being at the door of death myself on a daily basis. I have become curious about coming out of my body and seeing what that would be like!!
October 1, 2008
IT IS NOW SHOWING AT 25% AND I FEEL IT IS CONTINUING TO GET BETTER AND BETTER. ANOTHER HOPE AND GREAT FEATURE TO COME MAYBE BEFORE THE END OF THE YEAR WILL BE A "PERCUTANEOUS MITRAL VALVE REPAIR KIT" WHEREBY THEY PLACE A CLIP/SPRING ON THE MITRAL VALVE TO CAUSE IT TO CLOSE AFTER IT PUMPS OUT THE BLOOD. THAT PREVENTS THE BLOOD FROM COMING BACK INTO THE VENTRICLE CHAMBER AND ALSO ALLOWS THE HEART TO WORK LESS STRENUOUSLY. THAT IS ONLY AN OUTPATIENT PROCEDURE AND WILL BE OF GREAT BENEFIT TO THE CONTINUED IMPROVEMENT AND REJUVENATION AND INCREASING THE EJECTION FRACTION PERCENTAGE!!
SO I HAVE A LOT OF HOPE AND JOY AT THIS NEWS AND WILL CONTINUE TO DO EVERYTHING I CAN TO HELP MY BODY HEAL AND MOVE IN THAT POSITIVE DIRECTION!!!
THANK YOU TO EVERYONE FOR YOUR DEAR AND SINCERE PRAYERS, CALLS, NOTES, LETTERS, AND LOVING SUPPORT. I AM TRULY A BLESSED MAN TO HAVE SUCH WONDERFUL FOLKS AROUND ME...THANK YOU SO VERY VERY MUCH.
I WILL BE SEEING YOU SOON...................MIKE
September 29, 2008
Pray with me that wisdom, direction, and peace will be ever growing my heart. Thanks.
PS I will write more of my thoughts as they come to me. This will be like a person journal for me.
September 22, 2008
So my goal is to get all the necessary paper work done this week, copied, sent, mailed, faxed, requested, interviews set up, doctor's offices called so that the correct medical records can be pulled and sent to the proper places and the complicated mix can begin its process. This is a necessary task of the everyday life and reality. I choose at this time to take it minute by minute and allow the grace and ease of the precious moment to flow and make it through with joy, hope, and freedom. I have the challenge and the choice to implement again the tools that I have and stretch them and enlarge them so that I am a person capable of the challenges we all face.
Even in the midst of illness and weakness we all can thrive well and create wholeness and health for the spirit, mind, soul, and thus resulting in peace for the body! I look forward to a good day, and a wonderful week.
Right now, I look out and take in the green of the outdoors and the lively variety of green colors and pull them into my spirit and watch my heart and soul become more lush than ever! Yea!
I will keep you posted, and I will be writing down inspirational thoughts and taking up the pen again to transcribe internal experiences to paper.
September 21, 2008
I am deeply grateful for everyone's affirmation and support with the decision. I have received great praise for following "self-care" and I am very thankful for that validation! Thank you so much. Mike
THERE WILL BE RELECTIONS AND MEDITATIONS RESUMED SHORTLY.....................................:)
September 8, 2008
EVERYONE HAS BEEN SO GRACIOUS AND KIND AND IT STILL HAS BEEN AFFECTING ME EMOTIONALLY AND SPIRITUALLY IN A POSITIVE MANNER.
I ALL CAN SAY RIGHT NOW IS THAT I AM COMING ALONG LITTLE BY LITTLE AND I FEEL VERY GRATEFUL FOR EVERYONE'S CARE AND CONCERN. IT HAS BEEN ENORMOUS!
MUCH MORE TO COME. BYE FOR NOW. MIKE
August 23, 2008
Everywhere I went in Thailand everyone kept showing me great respect as an individual. It was especially noticeable when greeting me with their folded hands pressed against their chest like when you are going to pray and then saying something to the effect, "Namaste." It is a greeting that says, "Hello, I greet and acknowledge the divine spark and image of God in you." It happened every time I met someone, or when a person brought me something like at a restaurant, or when departing and saying goodbye. The hands would fold, the head would bow, and their eyes would look downward with respect in a sign of servitude and back up again with a beautiful smile and eye contact. There was a bright sparkle of openness and eye contact in which you could almost see right into the very soul of the person you were engaged with and sense genuine warmth, a real compassion and gentleness coming from their very being.
Wow, that experience and respect that I received over and over again gave me the ability to think even better of myself and thus moved me to view and help others from a vantage point of wholeness and health.
In care for patients, families, and each other I hope to better understand when behaviors, emotions, tempers, get out of seeming control that I will be able to look beyond all the broken damaged stressed activity and begin to peal off the layers of hurt and see that really underneath all that outward exterior is a beautiful person who really is made in the image of God and likeness and respect and love that individual for who they really are, precious, valuable, and worth more than all the riches in the whole world.
Maybe we can learn from another culture about human respect and honor to the human person? Would you join with me in practicing genuine, honest, openness that really does respect each other with authenticity and heartfelt care?
Thanks so much. From Mike, your chaplain
July 27, 2008
I go to the doctor in September 29th and will have an echo to see if there is some improvement of the heart. It probably is too early to tell, but if there is some improvement already that will mean that not only am I ahead of schedule, but that this procedure has had some positive affects quickly.
There will be an update on the website on Thursday with what I see and hear as improvement from a clinical standpoint. Already there is an improvement in the staminia and physical strength, so this seems to be a good indications of health on its way. In any case I will be doing all that I can to incorporate all healing modalities and integrate them into my being and essence so that there is an orchastra concerted approach to healing.
See you all later and thank you so much for your care, love, support, and wonderful friendship. Mike
July 21, 2008
This place though is so full of life, like bright illuminating lights bursting within like a fireworks in the sky, but inside the spirit giving off millions of healthy blessings, creativeness, and satisfaction.
What a great place to be in life no matter where you are on the earth!!
More later. Mike