January 30, 2010

DEC 8 2009 HAD 7 HOUR OPEN HEART SURGERY FOR VALVE REPAIR

PROGRESS SLOW, CHEMISTRY MIXED UP, BALANCE FOR STANDING WAY OFF, THUS I FALL A LOT. SLEEPING AT NIGHT IS GONE, RESTLESS LEG SYNDROME A REAL PROBLEM, IRON BLOOD WORK WAY LOW AND ANEMIC STAGE, THE USUALLY SADNESS AND DEPRESSION THAT COMES WITH OPEN HEART SEEMS TO BE VERY PRESENT EVEN WITH 7 WEEKS PAST AND PRACTICING EVERY SPIRITUAL DISCIPLINE TO LIVE IN THE MOMENT. IRRITABLE CRANKY, ME ONE OF THE MOST UPBEAT PERSONS I KNOW! PUZZLING BECAUSE EVERYTHING I READ SEE AND RESEARCH SAYS THAT I AM RIGHT ON TARGET. HALF WAY THROUGH, AND NORMAL. WOW, NO ONE TOLD ME ABOUT THIS SIDE AFFECT? WHY? PAIN, WAY DEEP IN THE HEART LIKE IT HAS FILLET. THE CHEST IS OK, JUST SORE, BUT THE HEART HURTS. DOES IT AFFECT MY RELATIONSHIPS, YET I TEND TO SPEAK OUT AND WITH DRAWL. NICE YES. FOR ONCE I FEEL I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER MY MIND OR SPIRIT. 99% I DO.
THIS ALL BECAUSE I THOUGHT I WAS READY FOR A MITRAL VALVE LEAK REPAIR, BUT I FEEL A 100% WORSE. YET MY VITALS ARE GOOD AND MY SINUS RYTHUM IS IN GOOD SHAPE? VITAL ARE GOOD, YET I FEEL 100 TIMES WORSE THAN EVER. EXPLAIN THAT. A NUMB LEFT ARM AND LITTLE FINGERS ON THE LEFT SIDE. NUMB FEET AT THE BOTTOM AND CAN'T FEEL THEM. MENTIONED THEM TO THE DOC AND THEY GO OFF TO LOOKING AT THE HEART AND DISMISS YOU NUMBNESS AS IF THEY HAS NO RELATION. I THOUGHT THE BODY WAS ONE AND ONE WITH THE SOUL AND SPIRIT TOO. MEDICAL WORLD DOESN'T SEEM TO HAVE THAT TRAINING OR INTEREST PROBABLY CAUSE THEY THERE IS NO MONEY TO BE MADE THERE. OK THIS IS REALLY HOW I FEEL AND THE TRUTH AS I CAN EXPRESS IT FOR NOW . PLEASE FOR BEING WITH ME SEND ME YOUR LOVE. i WILL MAKE IT......

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